OK. I’m calling it. I hate myself for doing it, but I’m dropping everything on Otorimonogatari.
No, it is not because of Tera. I gamed more ferociously during Neko White.
“My job is about words and writing them for 8 hours straight, so I don’t want to do it after work” sounds like a good excuse on paper, but I had no problem reading literally anything but Otori in my free time, and I write stuff in English for a living because I actively enjoy it.
I was tempted to call this a “hiatus” but a hiatus of any length would overrun my schedule of finishing Otori in June-July, ie. when the anime airs, at which point I will have close to zero interest in working on any of the Second Season novels. So if I decide to pause now, I might as well call it what it is.
Most importantly… it was really, really exhausting to work on Otori. The book isn’t easy to work with in any case, and the last few chapters I worked on just feel so weak and empty. Very shoddy work even by my standards. And it was only after doing the recent excerpts that I realised, damn it, I am not enjoying myself at all with my primary project.
Really, if I’m not even motivated to work on it, whatever I do manage to put out isn’t going to be very high quality either.
I know this is really selfish on my part. I know I put out an actual deadline for completion of Otori not long ago. Otori was an obligation I created for myself when I announced that I was going to do another Monogatari novel. I admit that, and I apologise for it. But at this point, and at this pace, forget the airing of the anime, it’s doubtful whether I would ever finish it. So rather than drag it out for ages, I will be starting over with something else.